Work has always been an issue for me as the eating problem takes over and I can’t focus on anything else. I have had so many jobs and always hope that the next one will be a fresh start with new people and will distract me from the real issues underneath. Inevitably though, running away from the problem is never going to solve it and when it catches up with me I just want to hide away. My current job is a temp one, covering maternity leave at the County Council. So far it seems ok. It is only 20 hours a week (having had back surgery at the beginning of the year, full-time office work isn’t really an option) so I work Monday – Wednesday and Friday 9.30-2.30. On my second day the woman who sits opposite me asked me if I had an eating disorder. Lovely! Not the best start to a new job. She was asking, not because I look like I do (!), but because she was trying to find out what I had in common with people in the office and another girl has an ED. Excellent. Just what I didn’t need. So, I am now REALLY paranoid and feel very uncomfortable at work. I feel like everyone is watching my every more and the fact that I pretty much only eat fruit while I am in the office and drink a fair amount of coffee…at the moment it is all I can handle. I know it probably isn’t enough but I figure managing a little in a controlled way is better than either nothing at all or way too much…
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