Panic!

I had a bad night last night. The feeling of empowerment from Wednesday went completely out of the window when the plans I had made fell through at the last minute. So, with the husband out at his weekly Tai Chi class, I panicked and defaulted to my normal “coping” mechanism and binged. So, I barely slept and today feel AWFUL. I hate myself and feel like I have let my husband down after all the effort he has made for me this week, and I know I have let myself down.

I need to stop myself dwelling on it and not punish myself for it but it is so hard. However, today is a new day, another fresh start and having just read a very inspiring poem (below) I will continue my fight.

When things go wrong as they sometimes will;
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill;
When the funds are low, and the debts are high
And you want to smile, but have to sigh;
When care is pressing you down a bit-
Rest if you must, but do not quit.

Success is failure turned inside out;
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt;
And you can never tell how close you are
It may be near when it seems so far;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit-
It's when things go wrong that you must not quit.