Blood tests

So, I had my bloods done and phoned up for the results this morning. The receptionist then informed me that they were back but there was a note on them saying that the Doctor needed to speak to me about them. PANIC!! I then had to wait for her to phone me back. I am not the most patient of people at the best of times but now I had the added worry of what the hell my results showed.

When she did eventually call back, felt like forever, she told me the following:

My oestrogen levels are low
My calcium levels are low
My red blood cell count is a problem

All the results are borderline so no immediate panic, they just need to be monitored and I have to repeat the tests in 2 months time. Plus, once I have the bone scan we will know more as to how the low calcium and oestrogen is affecting my bone density and what the risk of osteoporosis is.

Now, I know this is my own fault and relates directly to my eating but I am still panicking about the fact I need to up my calcium intake in my diet. My diet is currently awful, I know this but the thought of having to change what I can handle is REALLY freaking me out. I know the ins and outs of what I should be eating and what I should be doing but I just can’t seem to be able to put it into practice.

I am scared. I know I am destroying my body by carrying on like this but I can’t seem to take that step to help myself yet. I don’t feel strong enough. I can’[t do this on my own. I just wish the help would come soon and yet having spoken to my doctor it seems the wait will continue…